https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_2q_PYuoybU

Well babygirl you’re probably thinking that I don’t care. That I don’t even remember that it’s our 3 month-sary. But I do, and here’s a little something, or I must say, a little self-humiliating video that I made for you. 

I had it planned to be done differently and professionally, but I couldn’t get a hold of anyone with a proper camera and actual montage expertise to fix it. 

I truly don’t know why I’m rambling here when I’ve said more than enough on that video. I mean isn’t it enough already that it’s about 7-8 minutes of me.. you’ll know when you watch it.

I love you, and I’ve announced that publicly. 

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Anonymous asked:

I admire ur relationship so much , the way she holds u is so loving n u look so happy to be holded by her

Broken Mirrors: Thoughts of an outcast Answer:

(‘: thank you anon.
She is so loving and caring. I do definitely love to be in her arms.

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The happiest I’ve been.

I can’t and won’t be able to describe how happy she makes me. I won’t find the right words to explain. I think about her every minute of my day.
I’ve been with people before and a lot of times I got the feeling of “if only I had waited a few months. If only I didn’t agree on getting together with X I could have been with Y.” But her, I’m completely and entirely satisfied.
I see the best in her through every person I meet. I appreciate her whenever someone makes a pass at me.
I just love her in a way no one would ever imagine. It sounds cheesy but I don’t think I’ve been capable of saying similar words before.
I don’t even need to think, the words just slip straight from my heart.
I had opened my heart for her. She lives there and that will never change.

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Come back to me baby.
I don’t like fighting. Look at how happy I am with you. I want my smile back, thus, I want your hug back. Stop being so far away. This time I’m not the one who’s putting you in another room. You’re in a different room by your own choice.

Come back to me baby.

I don’t like fighting. Look at how happy I am with you. I want my smile back, thus, I want your hug back. Stop being so far away. This time I’m not the one who’s putting you in another room. You’re in a different room by your own choice.

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Anonymous asked:

U and ur gf are cute ;) she is hot loll

Broken Mirrors: Thoughts of an outcast Answer:

Thank you :3 

She is :’)

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Asking for 12,000 pounds for an internship abroad is a lot, but spending 5,000 pounds to do your hair isn’t mum? 
Now, I’m the one who’s being selfish mum? 
Seriously, now I’m the one who’s blocking the family from being able to buy what “we need” and I’m wasting the money mum? 
Under what logic and common sense would that be true mum? 

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I’m angry.

I’m seeking satisfaction and inner peace but I can’t find it. 
I’m lying to him and myself. I’m hurting her and myself. 
I’m doing everything all at once. 
I’m mostly not happy. 
I’m hungry and do not want to eat. 
I wanna dance and cry.
I wanna go be alone around people. 
I wanna get crayons and break them. 
I wanna have beautiful nails and chew them down. 
I’d like long hair but I wanna shave my head. 
I’m in love but I’d rather be left alone and lonely. 
I’m everything and nothing. 

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Dead but alive

Mum: How does it feel?

Me: How does what feel?

Mum: Being so sick yesterday, almost incapable of doing a thing and today.

Me: It is not easy to not be able to least move around in bed or to even curl up. It is not simple to have you or anybody bathe me, be bound to wait for anybody to pass by me so I can ask them for a glass of water or rather use hand gestures so they'd understand that I'm thirsty. And it is definitely hurtful and the worst kind of sickness to feel pain in every inch of your body from your freezing toes, your cracking joints, to the killing pain in your entire head. Not being able to breathe smoothly, or to drink properly as you find it difficult to breathe at all if you close your mouth way too long. You're burning hot, and freezing cold. You're dosing off but you can't sleep. You're dead but alive.

Me: You feel very dependable and highly useless. You're like a burden on everyone. You're cranky and intolerable, to the point you wish you'd die. It's mostly humiliating and shameful. I do not like to be sick. Now, it feels like I was brought back to life.

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Hatred!

It is very sad how some people are capable of hating each other so much. Some people would do anything just to see you hurting. I never understood my mum’s words when she repeatedly told me some people will hate to see me smile and will enjoy watching me in pain. But, now I see it crystal clear. 

hatred

I took my baby to get hair did. Well, it’s true I drove her to my favorite salon, but I didn’t really take her. I had wished to actually not let her pay a penny for it to be our belated two months gift. 
As I tried to pamper her that day. I have a very weird way to express love. I practically pulled her out of bed, insisted that I’d drive and not her, took her and a friend to have breakfast where I usually like to go either alone or to cheer myself up. 
But I chickened that she’d embarrass me. I didn’t want her to get upset. I was scared of her unpredictable reaction. 
I hope she’s truly happy with her hair and with me in general. 

I took my baby to get hair did. Well, it’s true I drove her to my favorite salon, but I didn’t really take her. I had wished to actually not let her pay a penny for it to be our belated two months gift. 

As I tried to pamper her that day. I have a very weird way to express love. I practically pulled her out of bed, insisted that I’d drive and not her, took her and a friend to have breakfast where I usually like to go either alone or to cheer myself up. 

But I chickened that she’d embarrass me. I didn’t want her to get upset. I was scared of her unpredictable reaction. 

I hope she’s truly happy with her hair and with me in general. 

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Part of me gets so irritated and scared of all the things you get and do for me. I fear that if anything goes wrong between us, you’ll regret everything you’ve ever done for me. You’ll start thinking that I’m an ungrateful bitch. 

I don’t want anything other than your love. Perhaps in a year or two, if we’re still where we are you could start showering me with the beautiful things you do for me. 

I know that no sane person shuts off gifts and fine treatment. But, I guess I don’t want no regrets and I don’t want someone to come one day and to have any grudge towards me.